Tuesday, May 31, 2011

1 more week!

Holy cow! I only have one week until my surgery. This time in a week I will be recovering in my hospital room hopefully feeling pretty good from the pain meds. My surgery is at 8:00am, so I will hopefully make it to my hospital room by early afternoon. I had my check up at Methodist to make sure I am fit for surgery and I was given the "all clear". It was a little nerve rattling because they had to take a lot of blood, but I survived and even went by myself! I had a bit of a panic this morning when I realized that I will be alone every night that I am in the hospital next week. It is going to be so hard to let Jeff leave on surgery day and then he will only be over after work the rest of my stay. My parents said they would come the day after surgery to be with me and other people have mentioned coming to visit. Then the work week after surgery I have "baby sitters" set up for Monday thru Thursday. I'm hoping to be independent by Friday, June 17th, ten days after surgery. I'm just trying to be positive and think about the final outcome but there are a lot of things worrying me.
  • Am I going to be able to do my class work? Will I get bad grades?
  • Am I going to be in a lot of pain?
  • Am I going to be able to do the exercises they tell me to do?
  • Can I get around the house with two large dogs?
  • Am I going to be stuck in the bedroom for several weeks or can I move to the couch?
  • Is the surgery going to fail? Am I going to be stuck having a lifetime of surgeries?
  • Is my insurance going to be a pain?
Am I crazy for worrying about all this stuff? I can be extremely irrational sometimes, but I don't think I am being that way right now. I just need lots of hugs and I am probably going to cry a lot this week. For those who see me regularly--be prepared!

2 comments:

Katie said...

Hey Girl!
I understand your fears completely. I had presurgery jitters really bad. I had many what ifs. I worried about having uncontrollable pain. I didn't know how I was going to be on crutches and care for 6 kids. It was a lot to think about and take in.
The day of surgery I was very quiet because I was scared. But I knew I was in the best hands. And honestly all worries and fears are normal.
For me after surgery I would make little personal goals I wanted to try and accomplish. I find ways to fit crutches in my life. And so will you.
You are going to be so strong after this and feel so much better. Love ya hip sister!

Kim said...

Good luck with your surgery. My daughter is having the same team do hers on June 28th! The questions you had asked Dr. Scheid were very helpful. I have seen a few blogs where the surgery had not gone well and was getting concerned. I look forward to hearing about your progress!